2009年7月20日月曜日
 お誕生日おめでと～ Today is my 27th Birthday, and it actually came without realising it. Time really flies, year by year I've being telling myself I need to learn to let go, need to change and need to face the future. However, up till this very moment, I am still doubting myself. This few days have been chatting with Kula and Ber, and somehow the topic keeps going to a particular direction, which I've always thought that it shouldn't be existing in my memories. It seems that every year during this day, I would hope that my cellphone will pop up a familiar number from someone, wishing me ''Happy Birthday'' like she used to do every year. Even though I know it is impossible, somewhere in my heart still clings on that hope. I thought with the love showered by ''Neko chan'', I would be able to change. Unfortunately, even with her selfless love, is still insufficient to transcend the feelings I had for the particular person. I got to admit I do love ''Neko chan'', but ultimately I still failed to overcome my own barrier. I'm sorry. ''We are just too different'' is all I can say..... When will this vicious cycle ever comes to an end? I truely don't know. I already lost count of the numbers of lonely birthdays, and the numbers are still increasing indefinately. Will I be living in such cowardly life forever? I don't know either, or rather I don't want to know at all. Even without me moving an inch, the river of time will continues to flow, time will tell. I miss you. |
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